Honest ... Today, I turn 50! Yes I am 50. I don't want to celebrate. It's not that I don't want to turn 50, It's just I never wanted to celebrate a number that my husband was never able to reach here on earth. I never thought that I would celebrate a year as early as 50 without him.
When April 25th, 2025 came and he wasn't here to celebrate his 50th birthday, we still celebrated him! So, why would I want to celebrate my day without him. He would have been excited to celebrate today so I will celebrate! This is the time I would've caught up to him. One unique thing about our Birthday's is that our 1/2 Birthday's are each others Birthday's. He was April 25th and me Oct 25th, of the same year!
Today, is a reminder on how blessed our little family is. An extended family that has stood by Lydia and I for almost 9 months and reminded us we are not in this alone, I have a work family that has shown me so much care, and I am so thankful for a daughter and her boyfriend, Eli who time after time have been here for me when the tears just flow and the two of them continuely tell me, " It's ok and you are doing well." "Keep going!" I am so blessed that today so many of my family will take time to celebrate with me! I am so thankful even though it feels bittersweet!
I will continue to keep looking at ways to be grateful for each oppertunity that comes into my path to whom I can celebrate too. Thinking of the ways I can somehow be there for those who have constantly been around me, who maybe need encouragement the way I once too needed it!
I am continuely reminded of one thing, We have a Heavenly Father that will never leave our side. He has and will continue to place people to be by our side. When we are walking in a storm he will bring us through each storm and make us grow during those times. I am thankful for celebration's here on Earth and in Heaven! I can't wait for the best Celebration some day! Something Kent has already Celebrated!
So Let's Celebrate!
Love, Leah and Lydia and Heavenly Hugs from Kent!
So well- written, Leah.
ReplyDeleteI understand that this day is bittersweet but thank you for allowing us to celebrate YOU!!!!
Beautiful thoughts, Leah. You are moving forward day by day with God holding your hand.
ReplyDeleteYou are an inspiration to so many including myself Leah! Just keep smiling. Kent would love that.😀. Love you!
ReplyDeletePrayers as you continue this journey Leah. Your post reminds me of one of my favorite passages.. Isaiah 43.
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