Chemo Sucks!

11 Years ago I got a card that said "Chemo sucks"  On the inside of the card it said "but if the Chemo sucks out the cancer then Yay chemo".  This is not exactly how I feel.  I plain struggle with going through Chemo and have Nausea sometimes before, during, and after

Thursday was chemo day and I thought everything was fine especially since I saw my nurse.  We talked with her but shortly after my port was accessed and saline was running I had to go to the bathroom,  I got so nauseated in the bathroom I lost my lunch.  Or at least a little bit of lunch.  I notified Leah when I returned back to the pod.  She notified the nurse shortly after. We talked to her briefly and her concern was whether I had been given my Ativan on board,  which I had taken shortly before our conversation.

Each and every time I went to the bathroom I felt Nausea.  Often Anticipatory Nausea.  Mind over matter they say but my mind is pretty isnistent it knows what is going on in the future.

Today is Saturday.  I got my pump disconnected which seemed to go ok.  I came home and had a small amout to eat and then I watched the first half of the U of M football game.  At that point tired rolled in heavy and I slept for several hours.  When I woke it was nearly 6 p,m, and I went to the bathroom then went to sit on the deck.  Leah had invited my mom to stay for dinner and she had wonderfully made and took over peach cobbler,   When she arrive we had a conversation as to where the meal should take place.  The kitchen table was the consensus.  I finished putting my mayo in my chicken salad and had 2 bites and hit a wall.  I stopped and decided I needed Ativan. We were about 12 hours out from my last dose.  I got that on baord and then I laid down on the couch for a while.  

When Leah and my Mom finished eating they both came in the living room.  By that point I felt I could handle some peach cobbler and ice cream.  I had one serving and about 20 minutes later had another serving. We both were very thankful for peach cobbler as it is one thing that if cold goes down easy and I like.

For the rest of tonight it will be trying to figure out what my body needs.  Meds or food and how much if any.

Prayers for Nasuea to subside.

~Kent

A note from Leah.... Kent is tired of chemo, exhaustion has settled in, and he has tried to be the most upbeat he can be, but has hit a wall. He has a hard time letting anyone see how worn he is.  I ask... please pray for him.  I am thankful for his good days but on the not so good days I am thankful he lets his tears show so I know that he is struggling.  For someone with cancer who is an introvert he shares little of what he feels and for his extrovert wife its hard to "read."  I ask for prayers for Kent to be able to tell me how he is and feels!  One more request, please pray for his Sept. 7 Cat scan and the best results possible!