Frightened

 This post really starts a week ago today.  Last Sunday we watched church online, went out to grab a "Safe" lunch.  I wasn't home long when Lunch decided to reappear.  This happened again Monday (a different time of the day. And then again Tuesday.  It was by Tuesday, I needed answers.  Leah came home from work and Lydia met her on the driveway expressing my wishes to go somewhere and be seen.

She began calling The doctor's office of my Medical Oncologist.  Long story made shorter they wanted us to come in for Hydration.  Nobody in my family really thought I needed hydration however this appointment was necessary.  I had one of my nurses from 10 years ago and she was very helpful in thinking about questions we needed to address at the Dr appointment 2 days later.

The next 2 days seemed to go "slightly" better but only sligtly.  By Thursday Lydia drove us to the appointment with my Medical Oncologist.  It was during this appointment we were suggested to start Chemo the following Monday.  Due to Christmas and News Year's day we elected to start that on Thursday Jan 2.  During the appointment Lydia asked the time frame for chemo saying you can only run a marathon for so long.  The response is that Chemo will be indefinitely until either Toxicity or disease progression happen.

During the appointment the doctor was waiting for lab numbers to come back from the lab. Which seemed long and had not by the time we were dismissed.  We no longer made it home and I got a call back from the doctor stating my Liver number where climbing and she wanted to admit me to the hospital.  We waited several hours for the call then made our way through snowy Grand Rapids to the hospital.

Over the next couple days there I had an emergency ERCP which took a longer time than usual.  This is a procedure that uses an endoscope and x rays to diagnose and treat issues with the liver,gall bladder, bile ducts and pancreas.   Yesterday I was placeded on  advanced to soft foods and was doing well.  I declined my anti -nausea meds during the day which was likely a mistake.

Saturday afternoon I was discharged from the hospital and allowed to go home.  I ate soup for dinner and a few hours later my stomach decided to reverse course.   I took an Atvian after that was done in order to relax and sleep,  neither of which happend.  By 5 AM I had Leah get me zofran and took that since my tummy wasn't feeling well.

This morning we decided a small amount of food was what I needed.  So I had a banana and again saw that an hour or two later.

Needless to say much of this Frightens me.  Prayers would be appreciated for keeping food down and tummy feeling normal.  And also that treatment goes "SWIFTLY" and effectively.  I'm not done living yet and that's not how treatment makes me feel.

~Kent