July 4th and another 5th without!

 5 Months! 

I don't really know how I got this far. 

 For me, when Kent was here being away from him for a few hours was awful.  I just wanted to be back home or wherever he was.  He was my security, and the person I shared every conversation with. 

This past month another first.... our first Father's day without Kent.  Lydia and I along with most of our family went to Church outside at Beechwood. Jean, Kent's mom joined us.  It was a beautiful day.  Many emotions for sure, some stayed close to my heart others floweed pretty freely down my cheeks. 

We came back to the cottage to eat on our beautiful deck.

Many first's are happening and each one brings many emotions and sometimes no words.  There are days when we crave conversations and help from others around us and then there are times that Lydia and I are at a loss of words and we just fall in each others arms.  

June 9, Lydia welcomed campers at Camp Geneva , but she also suggested that I start a new volunteer position near her.  She too, welcomed me at Camp Geneva as I help welcome many campers and families.  For me being with people is a part of the healing process. I also help get the emails sorted to each cabin, and oh my do you all write to your campers! My first time sorting was a record mail day for Geneva! 

I have been enjoying some time at the cottage.  Our Lake Michigan cottage has always been a place that has brought much rest.  It has a little different feel this year for Lydia and I.  Many people have enjoyed it with us this year and we are also a very short drive away from the cemetery. We often find a trip through remembering Kent, my Dad, and many others.  

As I write this we will celebrate our first 4th of July too without Kent.  It was one day he enjoyed.  For many years we would celebrate by camping or going over to friend's houses and watching fireworks over their lake.  This year we will venture over to my sister and join them.  She has extended a wonderful night of fun over by her.  Thank you so much Rachel! We are excited and grateful! 

So as we approach another milestone month, we were grateful for each person who plays a part of our healing journey.  

I am so proud to have Eli and Lydia who help me so often.  They always lift my spirits, even though I might cry when I see them. It's because, I am so thankful that they take special time to carve out of there busy schedule to see me. They make sure I am cared for.  These two are the reason I am able to navigate life. I am so grateful Kent too was able to meet Eli and see how much he will help our famly.  

I again say a huge thank you to all who have in their own way supported us! I am so blessed by prayers, stories and love given to us! You have helped in more ways than you will know. 

all our love, 

Leah and Lydia.